HEY! I MISSED YOU MY BLOGGY

Its been a long time I haven't here its like 4months ago? :((

anyway, i just want to share something to you about me these day !

today i feel really bored, and today my CONTRACT at TOY KINGDOM is END! and have to find new again. I feel sad recently bec. i haven't here for a long time bec of no much time to be here and can't share my thoughts to you everyday ..and its like half of my energy is gone!. :/

GIRLS NIGHT OUT!^^ THIS IS WHAT IT IS! :P

w/my peachezz (BFF) 

<3 <3 <3

I DON'T KNOW WHERE CAN I TRUST! :((

I'm alone, living in rent apartment, I'm trying to be happy but can't...........

what should i do of this fucking life!!!

I'm tired of tears!

Tired of crying!

Tired of waiting!

Tired to trust anybody!

Tired to understand my auntie!

Tired of searching!

Tired to be alone!
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I need a friend!

I need a family!

I need someone can understand me, can make me feel that I am important and I'm not alone!!!!!!!!!

LORD, please forgive me for being selfish!!!!
            Please help me  to know me!
            Please encourage me to become your child!
I AM SINNER !!! :(((((((((((((((

COMPATIBLE!! (GREAT COUPLE?)

lesson + learn + challenge !!!!!!!!!!!

SOME OF HIS PHOTOS SAVE IN MY FILES

some of his photos that left in my files, .

I will post it here bec. i want to deleted his pictures in my files... anyway we're finish so why should i still keep his pics? .. right?......

WAS OUT OF MY MIND

at work!

i got mistaken when i spell the batch number three, imbis the correct is : 

  All TK Good Evening! all number 3- all number 3

but my spell is All tey key Good Evening! all number sex all number 3...

hahhahaha what in the world happen to me! where is my mind?!!!

and the manager heard my spell and then she automatically seeing at the customer service and watching on me like she wants to kill me! ..and then i directly go out and break for a snack time..huhuhuhu patay nku ani..haahhah 

WORK IS FINISH! GOING HOME AND STOP BY AT COLON

me and jeremy is waiting for che-che outside, she's the last one na mauli it bec. she's the cashier so before she going home she need to count the money w/ the manager ..
and when che-che is finish she got hungry and she want to ate and i need to ate too bec. i need to take my medicine for my eyes allergy and today jeremy receive his salary! hahaaha filipinos always wanted a free.. so i ask them to have a snack at bakeshop near colon so we stop by at colon then jeremy pay the bill sa amu gkaon..haha ..  mao r2..even though ngit-ngit nah! ngpicture pa jd..haha

anyway jeremey and che-che is my workmates.. :)

hahahaa..at colon ra nag snack its bec. the snack house is already closed bec. its already late at night its 10pm..but there's a a good snack house at IT part but its far from here so we have to use here in colon. its okay anyway. .hehehe naa ra pa jud nglingkod sa daplin ky mg closed na sad ni cla duh!!not lucky! BATOG STYLE!! HAHAHAAA

HE MAKES ME REALIZED THAT FILIPINO IS GOOD ONE AND HE'S THE ONE

its been a long we haven't see each other its like a years, and now he change a lot. and i can say now that i like him and i realized that filipino is a good one than a foreign man... i love his style and very patient!! <3

then we had a dinner @ Sm mall (chowking) and I'm very full . then we went to the gym @ abellana nag jogging siya! I watch him while nag jogging siya and he's cute and he has a hot body that girls wanted!.

ONLY GOD KNOWS EVERYTHING ABOUT ME

its really hurt!!! what auntie says . dli kno malooy niya. i just only use her dn mapugos pa jd ko pghatag niya. cge lng kno ko gasto2. pro wa lng xa kabalo nah kng unsa ko ngtipid karn e compare before . din gtagaan pa jd nku sya ug 2,500 . pro wla rmn nku ang ako. mkabao siya kung unsa siya ka important sa ako life! maipakita nku niya na wla ko ngdao sa ako sweldo . 3k+ ra biya 2 ako 1st sweldo pro ky gusto ko na malipay or mkaingn sya na lahi na jd ko krn ky sauna . kamao nku mgdala sa ako kaugalingn . ,grabe jud! pirme nlng ko niya pasakitan storya. she never think na n.work ko dn late nku sa gabie mauli kapui kau . sakit pa jud ako batiis. duh! ambot nlng mura ra jud ug ako ra isa. wla koi family..hahai

GOD REALLY DON'T WANT ME TO HATES PEOPLE'

last night when I'm on my way home from work. nkasakay nku ako isa ka worksmate dn wla jud xa respeto promised as in mkahangit jud kau. ky cge joke2 na kiss ko be! what in the world ! dghan kau mga tao amu nkasakay dn ntan.aw abi palang in ana rku kaubos . pro i know joke ra2 niya. wla jud manners he acts like no education! nainit jd ako ulo . lami kau bugnoon. ambot nlng. pro a min. ago. ni plete xa dn g.apilan ko niya kunuhay. dn nabugnaw ako ulo i realized it just a joke but still not good what he had do in front of a lot of people in the jeepney, dn he is a good person but only he know nothing about manners and respect maybe his family are like that! mostly its depend on what style of the people around him!..

but, GOD MADE IT! I KNOW! he find ways to make me calm and don't hate that guy!..
GOD thank you so much!!! <3

<3 <3 <3

LOVE IS IN THE AIR'

trying hard to find someone who can rely on her. but still none! its bec. of her pride always wanted to win even though its her faults . but after all, regretted!  but its all end/all over. .

but i don't think its really my faults bec. i see it in my 2 eyes that his having in relation with an indonesian girl name verona! only the problem is I didn't listen his side listen his explain.

what in the world!!!!!!!!!

I don't know!!! grrrr I'm really crazy!

A LAZY GIRL! JUST WOKE UP AND DO NOTHING ONLY JUST TAKING PHOTOS.

its been a weeks i haven't open my blog. i got busy  at work ang i arrived home late at night!
i always wanted to check my blog but there's no time and when i came home from work i tried to to open but was fall asleep. . so all i have this week was taken photos and emote in my room, feel the pain..:(( grr. life is sucks!

yesterday in the morning when i woke up. :P

 last night (when i came home from work) very tired!

this morning. when i woke up and drink my coffee. <3



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these days i have a lot of though that i wanted to post it but now, i am already here all was lost in my memory.grrr...

:(((( AM I CRAZY?

PeOpLe AROUND mE : told me that every time  they see me. I looks like angry, had a big problem and out of mind ..i didn't mean to do it! I didn't know that i act like that... ambot kung naunsa ko.. cguro na crazy nku!.. ccguro ky dreamer ra kau ko..daghan ra gihunahuna...duh! ambot gikapoy nku!...

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SSS

I USE THIS DAY FOR MY BIRTH DAY ♥

Tomorrow is my birth day! but i have work tomorrow and today is my day off so i use this day for my b-day i go around at Sm mall after i re schedule my orient then i went to' Mc donald' t have snack..then after go to boutique just window shopping then at 4:10pm i go to cathedral church ni SIMBA!and nanagkot then take a photo after sa misa in surroundings of the church then i see someone who's near with me and they taking pictures too so i ask them to take a photo of me then i will take a photo of them too ...
I want to have a photo of me in my 20th birthday for my remembrance...i don't think if someone in my family can remember that my birth day is tomorrow bec. I didn't tell them!.. its better they know nothing so that i didn't feel sad..

today: I'm trying to be happy ! but still i can feel the pain that josh hurt me so  much...

at SM mcdonald !
AM I CRYING??? :((

then the cathedral place/church!

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MALL ORIENTATION

I'm late! :( didn't get to enter the gate bec. I'm late and its already close!...huhuhuh langayan jud kayu c chingmae.. .

hahai, gkapui nku!

HEARTACHE

natinood jud ang gi.ingn ni sa iya dream na naai kauban c josh na girl, long hair and skiny and i am there and act nothing. looy dao kau ko ato sa dream ni auntie bec. I'm not the one na kauban ni josh but the indonesian girl.. grabe jud ni c auntie noh natinood jud iya dream dn indonesian jud.. hahay kafaet sakong life... ambot! wla nku gana mgminyo or makig relation.. i just to be alone in my whole maybe.. its better than carry a luggage i don't own. . my nalang gne nag work ko din busy kayo ko sa work so not really na mkafeel ko sa sakit bec. i need to focus my works para dli masayop arun dli mkasab.an sa manager. wla pa rba jud intawn ko nkasab.e ky sa uban nku kauban first time pa lang gne nkasab.an nah. until now. . but me wla jud tawn..cguro sa work lang ko LUCKY! but in relation bad luck ko !!! :((
 ok ra. dili ko maminyo basta naa lang ko anak ..anak ra jud ako dream sa ako life .. but dli pinoy. gusto white people, like american, europian, british, or korean pero kung dli gne in ana akong maging anak! my pag wala!..

:(( :(( .. POOR JULIE (ching)

4 DAYS AT WORK

working is so tiring! but that's the reality, we need to work so that we can stand our own! anyhow to have someone made you perfect and specially to GOD!
and to have my josh it will made me strong and perfect! he's my inspiration and i love him so much! every time he didn't mail me that's made me sad! reading his message everyday made me tired less and inspired me a lot and make me strong!! :)

and about my auntie: I am feel sad to her, I want to help her!. when i came home last night auntie told me about her feelings and she's crying. it bec. she don't have any profession not like her siblings, has a profession and future! :((

FINALLY I GOT A WORK!

On thursday I'm going to start my work. :)))
but I'm really not feeling well today ,I got head ache!

you know, i was thinking this work is really hard to make a leave for holiday bec. I assign at Costumer Service and they want me to be a regular, so its like i need to stay here for a long time i mean many years . then my josh is coming this Sept. then what can i do? how can i leave my work? and if ever god's want .soon like december I'm coming with josh to visit his family at alabama. .and if i come with josh w/o any permmission from my office and my auntie I'm sure I got fired,  no allowance and .when I'm coming back here i have no more work or no one would support  me bec.I am not really sure if josh become my husband and I don't know what should our plan for us but I am sure I really do love him.. but i am feeling to stay in philippines  bec. I am free specially if i have work and live by my own..really i am free.philippines is very different to other country..
but i am worried about my auntie bec. its in my feeling that soon no one will support her so i need to go to other country and work and help her a little and also to have a family bec. that's my dream and have a cutie cuties half american baby.. :)

A PICTURE OF ME THESE DAY 

with my sister <3

SOMETIMES LIFE IS BORING W/O SOMEONE WHO CARE AND LOVE YOU

hahayyyyyyyyyyyyy, I'm tired of this life! gkapoy nku kasabot ka blog? kapoy nah, always lng ko pasakitan sa n auntie dudahan.hahay  kakapoy na jd , wla mn ngmahal , walay nag care. duh! ambot mamahala nalng ko ani. bstah mkawork na gne ko mupuyo ko ug ako ra isa .huna hunaon nlng nku na wla koi pamilya ngtubo ko na ako ra...


anyway today i went to SM mall to follow up my work and i stop at coffee have a  hot caffe latte then thinking of josh, my life and about auntie ..i feel want to give up everything i don't want to stay ..when i think of josh its kind boring bec. i feel sometimes that he don't care much about me and he's not sure about his feelings to me, I don't know?! my life is full of loneliness..duh ambot gkapoi nku tanan. !

when i went to SM

at coffee shop waiting my coffee ;)