I DON'T KNOW WHERE CAN I TRUST! :((

I'm alone, living in rent apartment, I'm trying to be happy but can't...........

what should i do of this fucking life!!!

I'm tired of tears!

Tired of crying!

Tired of waiting!

Tired to trust anybody!

Tired to understand my auntie!

Tired of searching!

Tired to be alone!
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I need a friend!

I need a family!

I need someone can understand me, can make me feel that I am important and I'm not alone!!!!!!!!!

LORD, please forgive me for being selfish!!!!
            Please help me  to know me!
            Please encourage me to become your child!
I AM SINNER !!! :(((((((((((((((